I'm drowning

I can't breathe...
I can't see...
Am I dying?
Wake up you fool?
Your suicide could be botched if you wake up...

Damned

"I always wanted to help people - even if I'm damned reguardless."

The Acceptance in Picking Up The Pieces YOU Broke

I wonder, do we all know where we belong? And if we do, in our hearts, why do we so often do nothing about it? There must be more to this life, a purpose for us all, a place to belong. You were my home. I knew from the moment I met you, that night, so many years ago.
-Beyond Borders

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
~From a headstone in Ireland

God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them.
~Author Unknown

I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed.

-Edward Cullen, New Moon

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.
-Bella Swan, New Moon

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.
-Bella Swan, New Moon

It didn’t feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I’d grown strong enough to bear it.
-Bella Swan, New Moon

thoughts

"There is no knight in shining armor, there is no white stallion. There is only heartbreak and pain, and, amidst it all, somewhere, a rainbow." --Unknown"Finally those you love are simply... those you love." --LestatThe greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he doesn't exist.--Charles Baudelaire As far as I knew white women were never lonely, except in books. White men adored them, Black men desired them and Black women worked for them. --Maya Angelou Courage is grace under pressure. --Ernest Hemingway Take me, I am the drug; take me, I am hallucinogenic.--Salvador Dali
Sex is the last refuge of the miserable.
--Quentin Crisp
Loss leaves us empty - but learn not to close your heart and mind in grief. Allow life to replenish you. When sorrow comes it seems impossible - but new joys wait to fill the void.
--Pam Brown
We have resolved to endure the unendurable and suffer what is insufferable.
--Hirohito
Unselfishly, you left your fathers and your mothers,
You left behind your sisters and your brothers.
Leaving your beloved children and wives,
You put on hold, your dreams
-Anon., In Your Honor

Picture perfect memories

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cuz I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stopping looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

Oh whoa
Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk
and I need you now.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.