Sometimes....

Sometimes there is just shit I don't want to talk about...she so happens to be one of them...

Start Another Brand New Day...

Robert Frost once said "The only thing I can tell you about life is: it goes on." Those words have meant so much to these last few weeks. Life does go on...even when you don't want it to. It's funny how that happens.

Fifty Shades of Fucked Up

This seems to be a constant pattern in my life. Am I the one that is fucked up?? Should I just give up?? My family says I've come to far and I should get back into therapy... apart of me just wants to runaway. Leave this place and start over new. But it doesn't seem like that will be happening soon. It's a sick, sad thought and world that I see the people who have hurt me move on with there lives as if nothing has happened... I am just like Christian Grey - Fifty Shades of Fucked Up... I should have died November 9, 2008.

"Part Of Me"

"Part Of Me" by Katy Perry

Days like this I want to drive away Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade You chewed me up and spit me out Like I was poison in your mouth You took my light, you drained me down But that was then and this is now Now look at me [Chorus:] This is the part of me That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no This is the part of me That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows But you’re not gonna break my soul This is the part of me That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no I just wanna throw my phone away Find out who is really there for me You ripped me off, your love was cheap Was always tearing at the seams I fell deep, you let me down But that was then and this is now Now look at me [Chorus] Now look at me I’m sparkling A firework, a dancing flame You won't ever put me out again I’m glowin’, oh whoa So you can keep the diamond ring I never liked 'em anyway ["Complete Confection" version of a song says: "It don't mean nothing anyway"] In fact you can keep everything yeah, yeah Except for me [Chorus] This is the part of me No Away from me No This is the part of me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me... No Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows But you’re not gonna break my soul This is the part of me That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

For 2012...

I wish for peace... peace for my heart... and peace for me soul..