Words for Comfort

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
Amen.


This morning I need a little comforting. I've spent the last week with my other half, Dory, now I am on my way to see my parents up in Tennessee. However, I'd rather stay here. I guess as you grow older you realize that your parents will always be around (atleast if not physically but spiritually) and to do what makes you really happy. He makes me really happy. And thats all that matters.

But still - once again we are about to embark on another time of seperation. Four months this time - but this is just seconds in the big picture of things. We mutually agree that during these bouts of seperation that we focus on ourselves and our careers - but still my mind lingers to the future and the possiblities of what is to come of us.

Sometimes I just have to humor myself - even though reality might kick in someday. I don't want it to.

These small amounts of time are just preparing us for the long year we'll be away from one another to come. I can honestly say I love him. Deep down with out hesitation. I think that scares him. It scares the shit out of me too. But - anything worth loving, worth having will always be scarey at first but in the end the best thing that ever happened.