So much more ...

I have so much more to write and say... I'm hoping that by writing it will help me feel better - mentally...

Sometimes I feel like a complete wreck.. You know the type that its so horrific that you can't help but watch?

I found this place on YouTube... I'm really interested in taking my photographs and collages.. and other types of artisty things that I do and making it into a video.

I have a program on my laptop that helps you take your photographs and make music videos or whatever you want with them.

My stomach is still hurting from my little episode last night... Sometimes I'm just so scared of myself. Scared of who I am... what I'm becoming... or what I've already became.

My college English Professor would be pissed if he saw all these choppy, broken up sentences.. but its kinda like these are my thoughts... so thats why I'm writing like this.

I'm rather curious if anyone will read this... let alone reply... I hope someone does... I have to hang on to that ... Hope.